where would i be?

i feel lost everyday i am without you i see you walk by me like you dont know me like i dont exist?i sit for a while staring at my phone waiting patiently for a txt beep beep goes my phone there your name pops up on the screen i get butterflies in my stomache and read it "hey babe,sorry bout earlier didnt mean to blank you just dont want it to look suspicious meet me in ten in the usual place,love you" Same old message everyday i never question it just text back "ok"!am i doing this coz i love him or just for the fact i want to be loved by him.i dont think noone understands my feelings i love the hugs the kisses the way he says i love you!!!!but does he mean it is it true??He tells me its the truth no lies but i dont know what to believe i been back four times,i cant just say i dont love you when really i do its the effect he has on me like you use to.His blonde hair and gorgeous smile makes me weak at the knees makes me shiver with excitment i love him, well atleast i think i do!im writing this poem to you to let you know you still have a place in my heart but im moving on now happy where im at he says he loves me and i love him too....all im afraid of is hurting like i hurt you!!!