myself

this really isn't a poem... it's an apology I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. I can't take back any of the pain that I have caused you But please know that I was in so much pain at that crucial moment I needed you to be there And you refused. You had done the unthinkable to me Betrayed me in a way that you had promised you never would You tell me not to hate her for it But I do And I always will And I will never forget I have forgiven you But now its time for you to forgive me I can't imagine what you went through Knowing I was lying there in limbo Not being able to see me Not holding my hand through this Not even knowing if you could ever hold my hand again I vaguely remember you crying when you found me I don't remember much else You get so mad at me for asking things about what happened But I don't know any of it There is one full week in my life that I don't know about So many days that I fought in my mind for you to be there Crying in my mind that I wanted you and only you But no one could hear me Because I wasn't even really there You have in a way forgiven me You have let me back in Started our family over Even helped me make the kids understand how sick I am But I know that you will never fully forgive me The way that I can never fully forgive you I just want to move on Forget everything that happened and everyone that caused it But I need you to forget too I know that you still don't fully trust me There are still no kind of pills in our home after 2 months But in a way I understand that I can't say that I'm sorry enough for everything But it's time for us to move on now we have one problem And that is her Not leaving us alone....stalking us So we need to leave And we will But we need to do what is best for our family And I refuse to let her break our family down The same way you do Just keep being honest with me And I will do the same for you Just learn to forgive me And maybe one day I can do the same I love you And I know you love me That is all we need... I'm sorry.