emotion of lonliness

the anger the tears it all wells up inside of me waiting for the weak point where they can split at the seams and it all comes billowing forth to ruin my world to make me alone no one to hold me noone to help all alone by myself trying to make it on my own and failing miserably am i happy by myself? would i be lying if i said no? i wonder if people can see it in my eyes the longing for friendship a hunger needing to be fulfilled i wish i werent alone i wish i were surrounded by those i left behind those i love those that i left against my will all alone with my thoughts self-entertainment only carries you so far before you begin to doubt to doubt yourself your friendships everythign you stand for will somebody ever care? i wish it were over