Confused! x

So hes my mate, And always will be, I've always known he'll be there for me. She found out what happened, And now shes trying to take him away. She doesn't want it to happen again, But it probably wouldn't anyway. But the more she pulls him away, The more i think why? And i start going all weird. I dont fancy him or anything like that, but.. It seems the more she does try and drag him away, The more i want him to be mine. Confusing as it seems. The more i think why is he with her? And think what is he doing? The more i think im starting to have feelings more him. My minds twisted. What do i do? I cant say i have a crush or whatever on him, Because i dont. I love him to bits, dont get me wrong. Its not the perfect timing, hes back with her now. What am i saying?? Im not bothered if he is. But i am. Im confused. What do i do? I should have gone for him when i had the chance, And now i cant. Hes one of the lushest mates ever! He listens, makes me laugh so much and will never let me get hurt! Hes on my mind, but not neccassary like that. What do i do? Im too confused.