The way I feel

How I loved you since the first moment we met, the first time you held me within your arms, I will not forget. For five years I have held my place, lived through everything you've done to me, and half of the times I regret that I stayed. I sit in silence, prepared for those final words goodbye, but you refuse to say them, yet you are gone day and night, sometimes I feel you leave me with no choice, only to run and flee, you leave me here lonely, not wanting to breathe. You have taken my heart right from my chest, you have inclosed me in a life filled with loneliness. Taking care of your son, that you say you love, but you never see, leaving me to do all of the work, and then try to take half of the credit from me. I am angery, I am hurt, you dont try to do nothing, you cant and will not hold down a job, so what is the point in getting childsupport. In less than four months I will deliver your second child, you say this time will be different, but yet you still arent around, you have taken my love for granted, and one day you will see, that not only did I love you, but all of the hurt you caused me. You only think of yourself, and what is best for you, I believe you live in the moment, a moment that was ment for only you. You get to have a life, go out and run around every day, you get to make and have friends, while it is here that I stay. You get mad if I talk about our problems to someone else, but you will not even sit and face them, what is a relationship if only one of us is involved, what is love, if you cant even call. Some say that I am to dramatic, but yet this is how I feel, and instead of helping, those people turn everything inside out.