his smile

His smile used to make me smile, now it reminds me of things i dont wanna rememeber it reminds me of death, and how we used to be so happy! but were not anylonger, he found someone new, it used to feel like every time i saw u i was alive, u lifted me up, u made me happy and now i dont know what to do, i wish we could have had something, but we had nothing, besides a friend ship,.. an u betrayed me so many times. and naturaly my soul surrenders, i always ended up crawling back to u,. now we have 3 months before we will see one another agian, and i think we just need a little time apart, maybe u will relize how u feel about me,. i hope you will miss me,. b/c i know il miss u, but its time to make up a perfect smile, an pretend everything is goin to be fine!!