You know who you are.xx

A week ago today, i didnt know what to say to you, I didnt know how to act or what to do, I still cant make sense outa the things that happened, all i keep thinking was i thought i mattered, I dont know why it happened, and i doubt i ever will, No explanation will ever compare to the pain that i feel, Im not angry anymore though, just upset.. Everything that happened, i know you regret, I'll always ask myself why? Was it my fault? Did i do something wrong? You said you didnt mean to upset me, Was it ment to make me happy? Should i have even gone? The answer is i dont know. The past week, i dont know how much iv cried, but then again i dont know how much iv smiled, It's always gona be hard, but we both know that, were looking to the future now though, not to the past. I tried to shout at you, but couldnt bring myself too, no matter what i still cared about you, I wanted to shout because i was angry and sad, i wanted to give you advice, i didnt want to be mad, i wanted to go mental, to make sure you didnt make the same mistake again, but after everything i couldnt do it in the end, Too be honest, i dont know why im ok with you again, but i want too be, you were one of my best friends, things have changed now, but maybe one day things will be normal again.. i cant promise anything, and i cant pretend, when im angry, i'll let you know, when im sad, i dont want you too go, i want you too be there, Like times you already have been, i wana try and forget, and carry on like before..