What I did not know!

2-19-99 I thought I knew who you truly were boy was I wrong. I wanted to see you defferently then what I was told. You were suppossed to be there to protect me and I was suppossed to feel safe but you expected someone else to do your job. You were suppossed to be someone I could look up too and that I could trust but now I see you never wanted me so why should I give you a second chance just so you can choose them over me. I only saw what I wanted to see. I tried so hard for you to try and make you come back. I blamed myself for so long because I thought you would never have done those things to me.