a new one. this time it has to be different.
i cant get too attatched. too invovled.
although that would be hard. he lives a while away. 
a good friend he is to me. 
hes always willing to please and teach me. 
the way of the world it may seem. 
but i know he cant show me the meaning. 

helps me when im stuck and we love to talk so mutch. 
it seems i cant think like this though. 
i dont know which way my mind should go?
sometimes it cant be helped. my head cant help itself. 
hes lovely. a sweetie. so gorgeous in every single way.
id do alot for him, come what may. 
telling me words of wisdom and guiding my way. 

hes intelligant. very clever.
id go up to see him in almost in any weather. 
i laugh as he checks himself out in a shop mirror. 
and iv promised for ages id fucking cook him dinner!
i cant get too lost though. too caught in him. 
when i sleep i sometimes dream, of him being here and how
mutch he means to me. 
he may not relise how mutch he does. 
i call him my angel because thats what he seems to be, 
he makes me laugh and means the world to me. 

he doesnt know  what i feel is this, 
he doesnt know im awaiting his kiss. 
sayin this before, but maybe not realy meant it as i do
now.
even if i dont go there hes a very good friend.
i love him alot. i hope he never forgets me. 
for one reason or another,is this different from the rest?
but i know im not gonna carry him, 
like some big weight on my chest.
maybe i will. maybe i wont.only time can tell. 

love him lots - My Angel x