what if i told you that there is nothing worth living for?
what if i said that there is no purpose of setting goals and
there is no reason for achieving them?  well of coarse there
is i mean maybe there is maybe for you ,but not for me , i
guess everything dint work out the way i thought it should
be after all. friends aren't always what they seem and as
for boys , well there all the same no matter how much you
think this one is different, there is no such thing as love.
its something made up for people that have given up and
don't want to fight anymore . they have nothing left, so
they make an illusion of love. 
and the truth is after all of this ,since you've been in my
life i have been nothing but happy but then i looked deeper
and realized who am i kidding im just setting false hope
once again. and as much as i want you to stay i wish you
would just go away , and leave me in my misery because i
have given up, like so many people .but unlike them i am not
looking for help in love im looking for something more , im
looking for something real something really worth fighting
for,something that makes me ,me and the truth that's the
only thing i have ever wanted.