Sam

I have no understanding of why I'm writing this letter, nor do I expect you to completely understand everything I'm about to say, but it needs to be done. And before you go on, we both know, that if you try to mention this to me I'll pretend it never happened, I'll do everything I can to change the subject. Its not because I dont mean everything I say in this, its just that I'm not as good with words on the phone, or in quick messages then I am in letters like this. This is how I'm going to tell you how I feel, I hope you read this and understand a little more about me, maybe about us. But if anything, I hope this brings you comfort in the fact that I'll always be there for you. Its been a long time since we first talked. That random message on a random website, to a random boy I'd never met. You were interesting, and funny, from what I could see in your information about yourself. You were good looking and seemed kind. You were everything a girl could want in a friend. A friend. Associated with you, the word seems so foreign now. So meaningless. And though that may sound like an insult, a horrible thing for me to say, it's not meant to be. We've wound up on such a higher level then friendship. Few words can describe what we have, if any at all. Its an undescribeable feeling, an unspoken bond that will never leave us. You said to me, that if someone were to tell you we'd get married, you'd be okay with it. You'd be able to believe them and understand where they were coming from. If someone told me the same thing, though I would be skeptic, being so young, I would rejoice. Because I know that you would provide the love and support every girl dreams of. You would be my rock, my savior just as you have been over the time I've known you. We would make it, if we really tried. It would be difficult, you and I aren't alike in as many ways as most couples are. We don't listen to the same music, I'm loud while your often quiet and reserved. While your honest, I try to hide behind things, and I don't like to tell people the truth. You can fall into a scheduale, a routine and be okay with it, I have to keep people on their toes, I can't have the same thing daily. You and I, we work because we compliment each other. And though sometimes, I have questioned my feelings for you. And even though we've had our ups and downs, I know we'll keep coming back to the same place, like we always do. We'll always find each other, in everything we do in life. Maybe it will be as friends, maybe more, but no matter what, I know we'll always love one another, and always be there for one another. Love powers all, it thrives in even the worst of situations bringing people out of horrible places. I love you Sam, more than I realized, more than either of us could've realized.