I have no understanding of why I'm writing this letter, nor
do I expect you to completely understand everything I'm
about to say, but it needs to be done.

And before you go on, we both know, that if you try to
mention this to me I'll pretend it never happened, I'll do
everything I can to change the subject. Its not because I
dont mean everything I say in this, its just that I'm not as
good with words on the phone, or in quick messages then I am
in letters like this.

This is how I'm going to tell you how I feel, I hope you
read this and understand a little more about me, maybe about
us. But if anything, I hope this brings you comfort in the
fact that I'll always be there for you. 

Its been a long time since we first talked. That random
message on a random website, to a random boy I'd never met.


You were interesting, and funny, from what I could see in
your information about yourself. You were good looking and
seemed kind. You were everything a girl could want in a
friend.

A friend.

Associated with you, the word seems so foreign now. So
meaningless.

And though that may sound like an insult, a horrible thing
for me to say, it's not meant to be.

We've wound up on such a higher level then friendship. Few
words can describe what we have, if any at all. Its an
undescribeable feeling, an unspoken bond that will never
leave us.

You said to me, that if someone were to tell you we'd get
married, you'd be okay with it. You'd be able to believe
them and understand where they were coming from.

If someone told me the same thing, though I would be
skeptic, being so young, I would rejoice.

Because I know that you would provide the love and support
every girl dreams of. You would be my rock, my savior just
as you have been over the time I've known you.

We would make it, if we really tried. It would be difficult,
you and I aren't alike in as many ways as most couples are.
We don't listen to the same music, I'm loud while your often
quiet and reserved. While your honest, I try to hide behind
things, and I don't like to tell people the truth. You can
fall into a scheduale, a routine and be okay with it, I have
to keep people on their toes, I can't have the same thing
daily. 

You and I, we work because we compliment each other. And
though sometimes, I have questioned my feelings for you.

And even though we've had our ups and downs, I know we'll
keep coming back to the same place, like we always do. 

We'll always find each other, in everything we do in life.
Maybe it will be as friends, maybe more, but no matter what,
I know we'll always love one another, and always be there
for one another.

Love powers all, it thrives in even the worst of situations
bringing people out of horrible places.

I love you Sam, more than I realized, more than either of us
could've realized.