Left or right?
Black or white?
I can't see clear.
My sight blocked by fright.

Letting go or going on?
Which one brings me peace at dawn?
Up and down and side to side,
no matter the motions,
my feelings I can't hide.

Turning back or leap ahead?
Either way, my heart I shred.
Tell the truth, lie once more?
Clean the slate or settle the score?

Which is right and which is wrong?
Bewildering fate I try to prolong.
Cold as ice, I stop to choose.
Never realizing what I'll lose.

My heart, my home, my future our past.
Let love in or let love last?
Chilling, thrilling I let him walk away.
Easy, breezy? No- I kneel to pray.

Devil or myself? 
Who did this to me?
Blessed or cursed with sight?
Surprised at what I know see.

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