You dont quite understand me i dont quite know myself
i seem all fun and bubbly but thats just someone else 
inside my heart is aching my dreams are dark and black
the way i look right through you like i am ready to attack
i go through life hating with pain loss and dread
sometimes i feel not worth the space and feel i shud b dead

You may not think i am lonely my emotions say i am
afraid to trust afraid to love afraid to say i can
my mind is a closed box full of destruction rage and pain
closed from the world my feelings hidden away
so if you see my smiling you know that it aint true
inside im slowly braking as my feelins keep hidden from you.