you dont know me

You dont quite understand me i dont quite know myself i seem all fun and bubbly but thats just someone else inside my heart is aching my dreams are dark and black the way i look right through you like i am ready to attack i go through life hating with pain loss and dread sometimes i feel not worth the space and feel i shud b dead You may not think i am lonely my emotions say i am afraid to trust afraid to love afraid to say i can my mind is a closed box full of destruction rage and pain closed from the world my feelings hidden away so if you see my smiling you know that it aint true inside im slowly braking as my feelins keep hidden from you.