Darkness

I set here inside my head thinking. Hoping I will never let darkness slip into me again. When my vulnerability is at it's best the darkness comes and steals a part of my soul. It's a darkness only I control. A darkness filled with hate, a total nightmare waking to desagrate. Granting me a death wish.A death wish I wish I could pawn. Total withdraw,don't expect a phone call.I hate when I give in.At these times I belong to the darkness. I am not my own.I hate this darkness and the grip it has over me!I don't want to lose my family.The one thing that has ever made me happy in this life. My family. Darkness please I beg of you give me up I'll give you up too. Stay away.Lord give me strength, strength to obey. I think everyone has there own darkness.Something that totally consumes them when they least expect it.