The Out and the In

On the Inside and On the OutsideOn the inside I am crying. On the out I am hiding all of my feelings. They can never be released. No one can know. Know what I am Thinking or what I fell like saying. It is just a lock that sometimes i don't even have the key to. Right now I am still am looking for the key. I am getting closer. I know because I feel something coming. On the inside i have tears and fears. On the outside I have joy and happiness. In most people the in and out always get mixed, For me I can Only feel one at a time. Some people have sicknesses that show on the outside. For me My sickness is on the inside. it is putting me through so much pain that it is appearing on the outside. it is good that I will finally feel like Most people but bad that this is the only solution i have found. But other times the in and the out get to mixed up. And instead of laughing I cry and instead of crying I laugh.If i'm not very mixed i am nowhere close to it. i just wish I could feel like most people. Until then i will try to live on the out instead of living on the in which has been happening lately. I will continue to search for the key. if I have found it before I can find It now.This is not how I feel but the way the world is happening I bet a lot of people feel this way. ©Copyright 2007