another lie

<font face=tahoma font size=2pt color=navy> April 20 2005 mommy said i would be okay as she grabbed my hand & told me what to say i opened my mouth to speak but no words are said & she told me i was weak i tried to tell her i didn't mean to but she ignores me & says how much i hurt you mommy kept yelling at me she still does & it has been worse lately i want to run away but where do i go i have no where to stay i can't run from mommy for she was like my step-daddy they were both crazy what did i do wrong for them to hit me & tell me i didn't belong? i tried to be good i always listened like a little girl should it doesn't make sense why i was the only one who didn't get a second chance i always got the beating though they did the wrong i felt like they were cheating maybe i deserved it, like i do now i am a horrible daughter & i know exactly how i whined as you hit me i should have kept queit & closed my mouth tightly now the only thing that escapes my mouth is a sigh & you then ask me why what reason do i have to cry? to inhale the smoke & get high trying my best not to choke on my words & die i open my mouth and i let out another lie... forever yours -Lilly-