Got my music blaring through my headphones 
It makes me forget that I'm all alone 

I have this theory 
But it's only possible if you make it to be
That if it's loud enough I can't hear my thoughts anymore
So in the music I will soar

My thoughts, They only hold me back
They turn my world cold and black
In the music I break free
From all my pain and misery
Get caught up in what's being said 
And not what's going on in my head

Talk to me and I will scream at you
Because I can't hear anything you say or do

I am a total mess
I think before the play button I press
That is my last thought as I start to drift away
To some parrallel universe where I will stay

Until back into reality I snap
With just one tap 
From the one thing I was running away from
Now I'm left feeling numb
My thoughts are back in my head
Along with the memories floating dead

Why? Why? Why? I question
But the answer is not mentioned

Does IT like seeing me in pain
Watching my bright skys start to rain

This thing I fight
Is no where in sight
Because it is found within my soul
The very thing that's been stole

It's the part of me I hide
Of me you only see one side

That happy girl is down the drain 
The wreck that I am runs through my veins

IT said it didn't like me for who I was
But what if I don't like what IT does
Yet IT controls me 
&& Who I want to be

Now are YOU happy
Now that I'm hiding from my thoughts and reality

Is this how YOU wanted me
This total wreck that you see

Yeah, that's what I thought
All my imperfections you fought
But weren't they better than what I've become
Feeling lonely and numb 

Leave and NEVER look back 
So in the back of my mind, my memories I will stack

Headphones go back on 
Escaping from reality...&& Now I'm gone

Good-Bye to you and your pittyless self
I put my conscience on the shelf 
Of all my past mistakes
Life is only what I make

Make it good or bad
Happy or sad
It's all just the same
Full of approval and shame

But for me
I escape reality
If only for a moment
It's my final atempt
To be who I want to be
Without worrying what anyone sees

Is this how YOU wanted me
Blaring music escaping reality
My thoughts and memories

That are now my mistakes of the past
OH, Why won't this music last 
Go on and on and on


Everyone look, All of her thoughts are gone