March 27, 2007

How do I describe the feeling of hopelessness when my life can be so much worse? I can't say that I'm completely lost I've seen dejection and a feeling of being worthless at its worst So how then do I describe how I'm feeling at this moment? I feel like theres a huge weight just sitting on my shoulders. Beating down on me until I finally cave in. But I can't There's too much responsiblity, too many people who need me okay and happy. I want to be sad, but I feel guilty. I feel guilty because I know I have a good life I have what some kids can only dream of And yet I'm sad Old friends dying, friendships lost, babies gone, more responsiblity then ever. The stress is breaking me down. The feelings are breaking me down. I just need one day One day Where I can get rid of everything Every feeling of anything but happy for the day I'm hoping Monday will bring me that But Life only seems to kick harder when you're down.