Mommy...I'm sorry

My mind is a child My appearance is a child I look up in awe as I see people falling in love and falling from love This makes me cock my head in confusion "Why waste time falling in 'love' if in the end you end up getting hurt?" My naive mind looks at my mommy and my father kissing looking so happy in public But in private... Why does mommy look so sad? Why does father tear off mommy's clothing so roughly? Father looks so scary at those times. Mommy use to smile and laugh blissfully before. She would hold me tightly and say she loves me over and over again and at night she would tuck me in securely and kiss me gently. But now.. Mommy won't even look at me She would just huddle in a corner and sob Father would always leave and slam the door loudly, muttering about "useless bitches" Oops, mommy told me NEVER to curse It was bad. After father striped mommy nakey and put this big thing inside of her private hole she would always cry out very loudly Father would smack her and he would start moving his body faster... Why does father do that to her? He tells me to watch even when I don't want to and he yells if I don't he will do the same thing to me So I watch and I would always cry silently... I always thought mommy was strong and pretty But recently I always see mommy cry loudly and the bruises on mommy makes her look yucky that even father notices them So he would lock mommy in this room and yells at me to go outside and to "Shut the hell up! And if you tell a soul I will bloody kill you! YOU GOT THAT YOU DAMN BITCH!?!" Uh oh I cursed again! I'm sorry mommy Hmm there are tears falling? Why? I'm....sorry mommy