What happens when you want to die?
When all Self-Esteem breaks down inside?
What happens when your family turns there back on you?
When your mum wont even say ''I love you too'',
I tear myself apart at night,
I wish we didnt have to fight,
But we do and it's always put down to me,
I cant help it, I'm what i have to be,
Nobody understands the pain i feel inside,
There all to caught up in themselves so my pain continues to
hide, 
I wish i could walk out, leave it all behind,
It's the only thought i have left in my mind,
If i cause this family so much hurt and pain,
Why do they forgive me all over again?
Why do they say i treat her bad?
It's nothing to do with them, it's pathetic and sad,
She blames me for making her ill,
She says i'll be the reason for a heart attack that will
kill,
I cant take much more of this, i just want to give up,
walk away, what's the point when they dont want me to stay?
If nothing had happened 6 years ago, maybe my attitude would
of taken its towe,
But it has and i know it wont change, not untill i feel at
all loved again,
So im sorry for hurting you all,
But this is the way i will stay,
I'm fed up of having to live everyone elses way.
Im happy the way i am, it's better keeping my feelings
inside, but nobody seems to see that, they just seem to
collide,
If they dont listen to me, why should i abide by the rules i
have set?
Because all there doing is making themselves upset.
I am who i am, and im sorry you dont like that,
But this is me and that's the fact.