I am who i am.

What happens when you want to die? When all Self-Esteem breaks down inside? What happens when your family turns there back on you? When your mum wont even say ''I love you too'', I tear myself apart at night, I wish we didnt have to fight, But we do and it's always put down to me, I cant help it, I'm what i have to be, Nobody understands the pain i feel inside, There all to caught up in themselves so my pain continues to hide, I wish i could walk out, leave it all behind, It's the only thought i have left in my mind, If i cause this family so much hurt and pain, Why do they forgive me all over again? Why do they say i treat her bad? It's nothing to do with them, it's pathetic and sad, She blames me for making her ill, She says i'll be the reason for a heart attack that will kill, I cant take much more of this, i just want to give up, walk away, what's the point when they dont want me to stay? If nothing had happened 6 years ago, maybe my attitude would of taken its towe, But it has and i know it wont change, not untill i feel at all loved again, So im sorry for hurting you all, But this is the way i will stay, I'm fed up of having to live everyone elses way. Im happy the way i am, it's better keeping my feelings inside, but nobody seems to see that, they just seem to collide, If they dont listen to me, why should i abide by the rules i have set? Because all there doing is making themselves upset. I am who i am, and im sorry you dont like that, But this is me and that's the fact.