FUTURE?!

I think about the future and how it will never come in time. For the future is a concept, not a place. And when I think about the future I find myself Thinking about marriage and children. Thinking about college and moving out. I think about the present as it relates to the future. I think about decisions and mistakes. I think about my passions and fears. I think about the future of myself, About school, college, About relationships, marriage, About family, children. I think of how I will be–rich, poor? What I will be–an author, an astronomer? Who I will be– a friend, a father? My thoughts lead to something unknown Thoughts turn to doubts, doubts turn to worries. I find myself concerned, Will I be ok? What if my dreams die? Will I survive? My worries are extra, something not needed. All of my plans, my hopes, me life-long goals Fade into the abyss of my mind- Never to be brought to the surface again. What to do in this ever so close future. For it is now coming, not creeping, but running towards me. What am I supposed to do? Plan? Or do I just wait, for all I know here comes the future. What am I supposed to do? I think about the future, once never-coming, And now, a train races onward. No anxious rush now, just the opposite-slow down. Simple bliss dissolves, As we choose what to do with the time that is given to us. I think about the future, how every second we’re living it. It’s like one second you’re thinking about and the next you’re just there. I wonder if you’re a part of my future. Will you always be there when I need someone? Can I count on you to make me happy for all of my days? I think about the future, wondering what it holds. There are so many possibilities. Will I always know you; will you always care about me? Will I keep the same friends forever? The ones that build me up, not tear me down. This is what I wish for when I THINK about the FUTURE.