Baby I'm sorry, and I apologize. Why both?
Because I'm a sorry excuse for a companion, and I don't 
deserve to hold you close.
I've been unfaithful, untrue, and undeserving of you.
My love for you is strong, but my weakness for another is 
worse.
You deserve more, you deserve better, and I want to be the 
one to give you my all.
But everytime I feel I can move mountains with you, we get 
to the top and I fall.
Leaving you at the top, still keeping you high, but im 
backsliding to the tides.
Other women are washing away my needs, and capsizing my 
wants inside.
I call you my baby because you are..but she's by boo, or 
should I say a friend too.
She does for me what you won't do, but claim to want to.
You and I are a year combined, yet she and I are only a 
couple of months tied.
She dismisses her inhibitions, but all you keep saying 
is "I'll try".
But everyday we part it's the same outcome.
I come over, you get yours, but i'm on my way out the 
door, and still didn't cum.
I'm always giving of myself to you; my everything.
You just give me most of you, or a part of you here and 
there it seems.
You are who I adore and want to spend life with.
And you the same for me, but there's a twist.
Someone else is in the frame, and she is just as 
infatuated with my frame as you are.
Baby I'm sorry; I apologize!
But all I've done is lie, cheat, and steal...you love.
Hers as well, I don't deserver either of you to be 
honest...To be real...
She thinks I'm single, and I've been giving her that 
impression.
To her, you're just "my baby mama". Damn this confession 
is depressing.
This shit is eating me up inside, and I deserve to 
deteriorate.
I deserve to be alone, by myself with pain and heartache.
You didn't deserve your heartbreak, the first time around.
Or the other past and future ones that are bound.
I never meant to hurt you, and I guess I still don't mean 
to.
But I'm weak, with no backbone to be true or do right by 
you.
My only motivation for my dishonesty is the physical 
absence of the closenes of your body.
I want so much for us to explore life together.
But you have restrictions that I don't, so quality time is 
spent with her.
I need you within my grasp, but you're out of reach.
So time spent with you is brief, then she and I creeps. 
But its out in the open like she and are you and me.
And that's the bad part; I'm hapy in public when she,s 
with me.
At the same time mad and ashamed because she's not you.
My love, my baby, my real boo, the one that is true.
My true love, the one I prayed for, for so long, and now I 
don't appreciate.
But I do, you're the one I need, with no doubt or debate.
You have a child that I claim as my own.
Like I released her from my temple and into your throne.
I've been telling you "I love you forever and always."
Baby I promise I do, and eventually, if it's not too late, 
Ill change my ways one day.
Part of me with her, but most of me with you.
Baby I can't apologize enough, but I'm torn between 2.
You had y all but somethings changed, and somethings 
didn't.
You're parents may not agree, but my love for you won't 
stay hidden.
I can't keep sneaking, waking up before the sun's even 
peaking.
My body can''t take that repetitious cycle.
So at the end of the night, I'm calling her after saying 
goodnight to you.
Call me rude, call me disrespectful, call me cruel, call 
me ungreatful.
But in my heart, my love for you has always been true.
Most people can't walk in my shoes, and most of them can't 
take what I've been through..with you.
Yes I'm having my share of infidelity.
But the distance, and differences between us have gotten 
the best of me.
My faults maybe hurting you, but they're killing me.
My mind stresses, my body compresses, and worst of all, my 
concscience is drilling me.
Draining me of energy, and of motivation.
Nothing not even an ounce of dedication.
I'm running on empty, barely making it off the fumes.
Only running off of the love that you and I exhume.
When I can't dieal with you, and feel as if I'm going to 
fall, she keeps me lifted.
Not to mention, she uses her talent, the girl is gifted.
Not speaking anyless of you, but you're not willing to 
deal with what I go through.
You have no nerve, except of those to fight.
You're still keeping me in the dark, where there's no room 
for light.
With her it seems that there is no darkside.
She's so optimostic, to her, everything has a brighter 
side.
I think maybe the reason I'm still with her, is Because I 
wish you were her... or vice versa.
We do everything that you and I should be doing.
Everything we want and need, we're persuing.
Why can't you and I be free like that?
Why can't I look in her rearview mirror and not see you in 
the back.
All I see are your tears, and all I see is pain.
There's no more happiness, and nothing else to gain.
She keeps me satisfied, and you make me happy.
If you possesed what she did, I'd probably leave her 
gladly.
But you won't step up, and given the circumstances, I 
cna't step down.
My heads on cloud 9, with my feet on splitting grounds.
Which way do I go? How should I choose?
I can't give either my all, because I'm torn between 2.