I enter the classroom
At exactly 1:00
I sit in my usual seat
Waiting for class to begin
French class
This is my obsession


I pull my text book out
And pull my homework out of it
Next to me
My friend is rambling on about a movie
Another behind me is frantically trying
To do the previous nights homework
Finally
Madame enters the room
Class begins


We all do the usual
Go over the homework
Take notes
Read in our text books
However, I do the unusual
Unlike anyone else 
I speak in french
And I am blind to the effects 
That this creates around me


Usually I speak in french
By asking questions to Madame like
"Comment dit-on 'se laver' en anglais?"
And sometimes, things like
"Vous aimez le caf� au lait?"
And always
The others look at me
Like they've never seen me before
And I think to myself
What's wrong with me?
Now I know


A couple of times
People in my french class
Have said to me
"You can speak English"
Or sometimes
"Just beacause it's french class
Doesn't mean you have to speak french"
And I always answer
"I like to speak french. Is that a crime?"
And they say (with a weird look on their faces)
"Yes, it is"


Madame doesn't have a problem
She likes the fact that I speak french in class
Of course she speaks french too
But, she's the teacher
She always speaks french
Madame told me many times
That out of all of her French 2 students
(And she teaches two French 2 classes)
That I'm the best speaker of french
But I always say no
No I'm not
That's just not true


Now I know what my problem is
What makes me different from everyone else
What makes the others look at me weird
Why Madame seems so fond of me
My problem you ask?
Is the fact that I love to speak french
Speaking french
This is my problem
French class
This is my obsession


This is my obsession
And this is what makes me feel like a loser