Desire and tears

I look at you At your beauty And I cannot help But to wish you were mine I would give anything To hold you close to me Kiss your beautiful, full lips And pull you into a warm embrace There is no stronger desire that fills me I want you Need you You capture my heart Entice my soul Oh how badly I want you My heart yearns for your love Now my heart shatters As I watch you walk down the hall With another girl Her long blonde hair And emerald eyes Your fingers entwined with hers I am filled with sadness and jealousy I cannot stand this pain Crushing my soul Squeezing my vulnerable heart Bitter tears now flow from my eyes As I sit in the bathroom Huddled in the corner Trying to surpress my retching sobs How can I stop this pain? I want it so badly to end My eyes look around Searching for the answer I stumble (finally) into the kitchen And the answer is staring at me Right into my tear-stained face Sighing with relief I take the knife and slash my wrist Crimson blood spills out Soon it will all end As I lay dying Your image floats through my head I smile as I forever depart From this world of cruelty Goodbye...