Pills by my side 
Knife to my skin 
Nowhere to hide 
No way to win 
The capsules explode 
As the knife pierces my skin 
Forget all my troubles 
Forgive all my sins
The blood gushes
The pain rushes
My vision blurs 
My words slur
It starts to go black
As I fall to the bed
And all my thoughts 
Rush to my head
So now as I lie here ready to die 
I stagger to the mirror
And take one last look into my eyes
I collapse and fall to my knees 
With the empty pill bottle right beside me
The next thing I realize 
The next thing I start to know
Not only is all this happening 
But thats when my pulse starts to slow
I gasp for air 
But my lungs reject
As my mind replies "Isn't this wat u wanted?"
"Wat you want is wat u should expect!"
With all the energy that I have left
I lay myself down to rest
That's when I whisper
With my last breath
Wake up...It's a dream
That's when I jump up, and I seize 
Every breath of air that I can possibly breathe
As I awoke next to a full bottle of pills
And A nice, clean knife
I hug my knees up to my chin 
And I sit up and I think over and over again
Think about wat I was about to do to myself
Then my heart begins to pound
As I take another glance at the pills and the knife
As I thought about how I almost took my own life
Thats when I thought about the dream
And I realize that the dream was just a test
A test to show me what it would be like
If I took my life
A test to show me what it would be like
If I had used the knife
A test to show me what it would be like
If I took the pills
The dream was just a test!!! 
A test to show me what it would be like
On the night that I woulda took MY LAST BREATH!!!