My Last Breath!!!

Pills by my side Knife to my skin Nowhere to hide No way to win The capsules explode As the knife pierces my skin Forget all my troubles Forgive all my sins The blood gushes The pain rushes My vision blurs My words slur It starts to go black As I fall to the bed And all my thoughts Rush to my head So now as I lie here ready to die I stagger to the mirror And take one last look into my eyes I collapse and fall to my knees With the empty pill bottle right beside me The next thing I realize The next thing I start to know Not only is all this happening But thats when my pulse starts to slow I gasp for air But my lungs reject As my mind replies "Isn't this wat u wanted?" "Wat you want is wat u should expect!" With all the energy that I have left I lay myself down to rest That's when I whisper With my last breath Wake up...It's a dream That's when I jump up, and I seize Every breath of air that I can possibly breathe As I awoke next to a full bottle of pills And A nice, clean knife I hug my knees up to my chin And I sit up and I think over and over again Think about wat I was about to do to myself Then my heart begins to pound As I take another glance at the pills and the knife As I thought about how I almost took my own life Thats when I thought about the dream And I realize that the dream was just a test A test to show me what it would be like If I took my life A test to show me what it would be like If I had used the knife A test to show me what it would be like If I took the pills The dream was just a test!!! A test to show me what it would be like On the night that I woulda took MY LAST BREATH!!!