i spent years wishing
i found the words
to speak my mind
i found the way
to let msyelf believe you were kind.
i let you in
when i wanted nobody at all
i found you there
your trust was my issue
and i choose that i
believed in you
but in the end you've
become my biggest downfall.

we could've been everything, 
but now we're not.
we're not anything at all
the hardest part was 
prolly the worst part 
getting this close to you.
and giving up these walls...
you're a fucking fairy tale 
that isn't coming true.

we could have worked it out.
i didn't have these doubts,
i didn't have to wonder just 
what are you doing now.
i didn't know inside
That it won't work out for you and i.

i wish that i could 
just say my last goodbye.
for a moment...
for a moment i believe this is true
but i need you tonight.
im still fighting to look
and greet the light.
i need you to know
that im going to be okay.

but the sad thing is
here i am....
without out.
i dont know
what day i choose
to change what we had
but it's changed my life forever;
i see it now.
you're my fucking fairy tale.
and im sorry, that i didn't
have these doubts.
that i needed your help.
im letting go.
and i need you to know;
im up through the night.
i think about you and i cant let go.
but i will be okay.

you're in my mind
the memories remain
scars may fade
and someday we'll be together again
you're never on your own.
i love you and i still care
somehow.

i believed. 
that it would have
worked out for you and i.
but im getting ready...
to say my final goodbye.


xoxo
Ellie