It’s true I love(d)

It’s true I love(d) It’s quarter after one in the afternoon. Bright sun and tragedy on the TV screen. I’ve got five hours left to slice my life away. I’m so in love with nothing at all and its killing me inside. Rock forth and back, sway to this inner music only I can hear. It’s you I love, only only you I love its true I love only love you you I love. Complete rambles and I picture her in your arms, I want to scream. Almost ten months and we still keep this dirty little secret. Is it true that sophomores are the slump of the world? If so, then why have I been like this my whole life? Do you have anymore lies to feed me, since I really need to get out of here. Maybe I’ll just shut up and leave again. I hope you never know what love is again, you still wish the same for me. Falling faster into your trap and Hell. I’ll pick away my many layers of scar-tissue masks. Knotted up in a straightjacket of emotions. Today I’m a corpse without you, never thought I go through this with you. Give it back now, my heart you’ve stolen. You eyes tear holes in me from across the room, I dare not glimpse then. For I’d surely die right here on the spot. I know I’m not out of the picture, I’m hidden behind the frame. You see me there, she doesn’t notice a thing. Just hope they never find out, we’d be ruined for life. I’ll ignore the facts and perpetuate the lies, for you, its you I love. --Catt <3 10/12/2005....night