Fear

My heart is beating so rapidly, my mind spins at a million
miles an hour, and my eyes feel like they are going to pop
out of my head.
I can’t breathe or move.
Hallucinations dance before me and screaming makes my ears
ring.
Blood pumps threw my veins in big thick slops, like streams
of lava threw me.
I feel like I have a fever of two hundred and three and yet
I shiver as though frozen.
I feel like there is some insanely powerful drug coursing in
my body, and this was a horrible side effect.
Then I realize I am sober and not taking in any chemicals.
I know then that the worst has come to be.
Hear my heavy broken heart beat, even though my pulse is so
fast, I feel myself slipping.
My brain pounds and suddenly the realization slams into me.
I am not under an influence.
I am consumed by one thing worse than any physical toxin.
I slowly fade and die from the poison you plague me with.
Fear.

Catt