Fear

Fear My heart is beating so rapidly, my mind spins at a million miles an hour, and my eyes feel like they are going to pop out of my head. I can’t breathe or move. Hallucinations dance before me and screaming makes my ears ring. Blood pumps threw my veins in big thick slops, like streams of lava threw me. I feel like I have a fever of two hundred and three and yet I shiver as though frozen. I feel like there is some insanely powerful drug coursing in my body, and this was a horrible side effect. Then I realize I am sober and not taking in any chemicals. I know then that the worst has come to be. Hear my heavy broken heart beat, even though my pulse is so fast, I feel myself slipping. My brain pounds and suddenly the realization slams into me. I am not under an influence. I am consumed by one thing worse than any physical toxin. I slowly fade and die from the poison you plague me with. Fear. Catt<3 2/15/2005.... afternoon