... Invisable...

I wish I could do just one cut, so I can see the blood but I can't, I can't do anything and I just wanna feel that stupid pain, just wanna forget... ...all I have are tries and red colour on my hand... I am not brave, everything I touch breaks away I wanna feel it once in my life, that feeling when people care, but there is nobody around me it's so easy to turn away... ..and leave just left me here, with my own scare... I can't even die, so I am supposto live my perfect life you know it's not fer,but who will let me from the jail, and that's my fucking life they told me once that I shouldn't hurt myself because I hurt the other people too Isn't it funny... Caus there is nobody who will be hurt and cry because of me I am totally lost... friends-they feel sorry for me my family... they don't wanna see and there is nobody left... ...who can be here for me boyfriend... I can just dream about that, just that I see happy faces, it s driving me crazy caus all I can do it s stand behind them, like a shadow, never felt what means love still in the dark, falling to peaces, no faith,no love, just one stupid mistake, just one more miss again... ...I am sinking... ...invisable... just one of my impossible wishes...