A diary is a personal insight to someone's life
A, well lets just call it, confession.
It's a confession of sin, love, hate, hope, 
and every other possible emotion one person can go through
I've kept my diary well stocked with drama
Sadly, this drama
Is my life

Let's start with a boy
A boy I'll call Duncan
Not much of a cover up
But if you didn't know who he was
You won't know who it is I'm talking about
If you're the select few who do
Well
Let me give you a story that's true

It was a day like any other
A girl having problems
A boy the cause
I wasn't surprised at all
But as it was
The girl was my friend
I wanted to help
And so it all started

A few placed insults
A swear or two
It was only a matter of time
Before his friend got involved too
He told me to stop
Told me it needed to end
She told me he was cute
My hate towards him started to bend

The boy and I had a conversation
Mature as could be
He told me I as smart
I told him, so was he
It was an interesting thing
To start off full of hate
And so I marked the calendar
This fateful date

A few weeks passed
Not many words were spoken
We were simply two people
No relation, no token
And then one day
I gave him a 'hey how are you?'
He said 'I'm fine'
I said 'Me too'

It all started then
The conversations began to happen every day
And we got closer
But in such a weird way
He asked for my number
To see if he could call me
I said I didn't know
that we would see

Soon the 'well see' turned to a yes
I gave him my number and waited for the call
Oh how silly of me
I should've known I was going to fall
He called me that day
And things were never the same
He told me the most trivial of things
His friends, his family, his last name

And yet I found myself smiling
Not realizing why
Every time he spoke
The butterfiles would fly
I realized that maybe I liked him
But couldn't say a word
he was a boy,a heartbreaker too
They were gone I had sworn

But still I fell
Every day we spoke
I would smile at his every word
Giggle at every joke
then he told me
that maybe just maybe
When I had fallen for him
He had fallen for me

And so it went
A boy and a girl
Talking together
Feelings starting to unfurl
But it wasn't the same
We didn't meet
Never knew each other
A relationship was an impossible feat

Then one night
A terrible feeling brewed
And my friend and this boy
Were being incredibly shrewed
I found out he kissed a girl
My jealousy came up
I had no reason to be angry though
He was absolutely right

And so we made up
Friends again of course
Gone for him were my feelings
Then came the remorse
He got me back
And then he told me
Never would it happen
We could never be

And so he upset me once again
I knew that he would
Every boy hurts a girl
Even if he never knew he could
And yet still we're friends
Talking and laughing
Until a confession came about
Feelings that he had been stashing

'Love' was brought up
Feelings arose
How could I tell him?
I couldn't I suppose
But he did love me
Or at least he thought he did
Did I love him too?
Or was it just the feelings of a kid?

The thoughts tumbled
And my wonder grew
I would have to tell him soon
This I knew
And so I did
I told him the truth
that I thought I loved him
It was no longer just feelings in their youth

But I haven't talked to this boy since
A weekend in waiting
Was he just busy
Or completely avoiding
I told him the truth
Left myself open to fail
And so I think
I may not be that frail

Maybe he'll call
And maybe he won't
Maybe he'll tell me
Through a rhyme or note
that the feelings are the same
Maybe they're not
Maybe he loves me
Maybe it was a fleeting thought

It scares me 
It's true
I'm scared to fall
Scared of what he'll do
But I'll keep my head up high
I won't worry
Because no matter what he does
I won't be sorry

I took a chance
I leaped into an unknown
I trusted myself
It shows how much I've grown
So thank you dear 'Duncan'
For this truth or this bluff
I hope the feelings are returned
But if not, my strength is simply enough