Let's call him 'Duncan'

A diary is a personal insight to someone's life A, well lets just call it, confession. It's a confession of sin, love, hate, hope, and every other possible emotion one person can go through I've kept my diary well stocked with drama Sadly, this drama Is my life Let's start with a boy A boy I'll call Duncan Not much of a cover up But if you didn't know who he was You won't know who it is I'm talking about If you're the select few who do Well Let me give you a story that's true It was a day like any other A girl having problems A boy the cause I wasn't surprised at all But as it was The girl was my friend I wanted to help And so it all started A few placed insults A swear or two It was only a matter of time Before his friend got involved too He told me to stop Told me it needed to end She told me he was cute My hate towards him started to bend The boy and I had a conversation Mature as could be He told me I as smart I told him, so was he It was an interesting thing To start off full of hate And so I marked the calendar This fateful date A few weeks passed Not many words were spoken We were simply two people No relation, no token And then one day I gave him a 'hey how are you?' He said 'I'm fine' I said 'Me too' It all started then The conversations began to happen every day And we got closer But in such a weird way He asked for my number To see if he could call me I said I didn't know that we would see Soon the 'well see' turned to a yes I gave him my number and waited for the call Oh how silly of me I should've known I was going to fall He called me that day And things were never the same He told me the most trivial of things His friends, his family, his last name And yet I found myself smiling Not realizing why Every time he spoke The butterfiles would fly I realized that maybe I liked him But couldn't say a word he was a boy,a heartbreaker too They were gone I had sworn But still I fell Every day we spoke I would smile at his every word Giggle at every joke then he told me that maybe just maybe When I had fallen for him He had fallen for me And so it went A boy and a girl Talking together Feelings starting to unfurl But it wasn't the same We didn't meet Never knew each other A relationship was an impossible feat Then one night A terrible feeling brewed And my friend and this boy Were being incredibly shrewed I found out he kissed a girl My jealousy came up I had no reason to be angry though He was absolutely right And so we made up Friends again of course Gone for him were my feelings Then came the remorse He got me back And then he told me Never would it happen We could never be And so he upset me once again I knew that he would Every boy hurts a girl Even if he never knew he could And yet still we're friends Talking and laughing Until a confession came about Feelings that he had been stashing 'Love' was brought up Feelings arose How could I tell him? I couldn't I suppose But he did love me Or at least he thought he did Did I love him too? Or was it just the feelings of a kid? The thoughts tumbled And my wonder grew I would have to tell him soon This I knew And so I did I told him the truth that I thought I loved him It was no longer just feelings in their youth But I haven't talked to this boy since A weekend in waiting Was he just busy Or completely avoiding I told him the truth Left myself open to fail And so I think I may not be that frail Maybe he'll call And maybe he won't Maybe he'll tell me Through a rhyme or note that the feelings are the same Maybe they're not Maybe he loves me Maybe it was a fleeting thought It scares me It's true I'm scared to fall Scared of what he'll do But I'll keep my head up high I won't worry Because no matter what he does I won't be sorry I took a chance I leaped into an unknown I trusted myself It shows how much I've grown So thank you dear 'Duncan' For this truth or this bluff I hope the feelings are returned But if not, my strength is simply enough