Once you asked me,.,.
'what do i mean to you?'
i didnt no it all then
,.., but now,,,.,. i think i do
all the things i miss
n some i dont..
will i ever forget..
i think i wont

cos its like this you see
...what you meant to me..
you were my inner strength
..my luxury..
my dream whilst awake..
i wnated you more
than that proverbial 'fat kid'
..who needed cake..

my body aches.,.,neck all gravvelly when i stretch
innerness mt .. makes me wanner retch
that feeling way down there..
something missing.. but to find it,.,.,. where..

i keep closing my eyes...
stopping...
thinking of you times... (one that popped up) that
once...you went...
...shopping..
i dont miss that.,., i miss ..more...most..

your flowy hair..sometimes precisioned..
your outfit .,,. this n that.,.,well decisioned..
you were always crisp.. no matter what 
made my smile inside.. delighted at what i'd got

you had many faces..expressions.. 
the one that made me laugh out loud most.,.,
was the 'serious face'... 
.... now.. sadly.,.,just a ghost
the harder i think.. the clearer you get..
but you remain out of focus...
i'm still not ready..  yet

you were my angel
my heart beat
my One
the one id come to first
even tho' do.. needed done
i feel some what contented
having gotten rid of .,,.,.stuff,..,.,that was formenting

im still not ready..
to face some faces
certain places
i think im kinda..  lower..
written all over my face.. disgraces..

i tried to harden..
... stem this angel from my mind..
i thought my brain could maybe do it
but my heart.. would find it most unkind..
 you were my angel
swhat you meant to me
i have loads more inside
..but pretty soon..
eyes'll not able,.,.,.to see

why do we do it,,.,. lay out our .,.,  fragile hearts
cos when two hearts joined as One,,.
kinder dont work.,., when one departs

a lonely albatross
time after time .,,.time after time.,.,(stolen.,.,C-L)
comes back to a rock,.,for their One 
if their One
doesnt come back too
then,,,. their nest making,.,.., days,,. are done.

~


kjnme4km ker u4emjmrnpu;rnmpouhmneyujnom 

goes to bed..
note to self***
..,., needs more work...