its not fair for me to hang on so close
let the blood slip down and drench my coat
let the pain inside come back out too
how much hurt i can cause i never knew
sorry i cant be here and sit and take it
but i know what would happen if i didnt
blame me all you want if that helps you some
its hard enough as it is knowing i cant see my son
the pain i have inside / nothing compared to what your gunna
feel when i come alive because as much as it pains me now to
sit here and write this and to think about you for one more
time its going to rip you apart to know that im not there.
as for nick im sorry i couldnt be the father i wanted to be
im sorry i couldnt live up to what you need me to be maybe
one day ill get back to my life and realize that thats you
and no one else but right now i cant feel a thing love
compassion anger and fear mixed into one a hollowed out
shell of what used to be me.....so sit there think about it
and remember my face then my back and the knife in its
place. Never would turned into not right now so cry about it
PEace im out