I escape my problems
I ignore my fears
I cover my pain
And don't shed tears
I don't want to face up
To what I already know
I have SEEN the ending
Of my reality show
To me this drug's a doorway,
A way to run from it all
If I re-enter to reality
I know that I will fall
You should be the one to catch me
But it's not you who's there
This drug is in your place
And you say I'm unfair
You gave me the Ultimatum
"It's me or this drug"
And you say these words with nothing more
Than a cold, heartless shrug
You said I have a choice to make
And you want my answer now
I want to chose, I really do
But I simply don't know how
I'm so afraid that I am losing
Every single thing I worked for
I feel as if the one I love is
Pushing me through that door
When I reached the point of no return
And Even tried to die
I said I didn't love you
We both know THAT'S a lie
I love you more than anything
When you are truly there
But I hate you even more
When you act like you don't care
If you love me like you say you do
Then why can't you realize
I'm not asking you to move mountains
Just simply open up your eyes
If you could see inside my heart
Then you'de know without a doubt
I'm not the "Tweaker" you say I am
Meth's NOT what I'm about
I want to choose you Oh So Bad
Without giving Meth a chance
I wish I could move on
Without a second glance
But that isn't even possible
Not with the way things are today
I feel as if I'm in control
"This drug's not in my way"
I know your not responsible
Meths not your claim to fame
But through the glass Life's wonderful
Right then it's not "The Game"
I will always look back and wonder
If I can truly cope
I know when things get rough
I'll always think of dope
I want to not have an addiction
I wish I could get clean
When I want it I feel bad
Cause I think it's you that's mean
I know I't not just hurting me
When I think about the past
I know I don't have time to waste
Life comes at you TOO FAST!