**unhappily ever after

So many things I can never say fill my heart when I see you It effects me for days Even after such a simple incounter. No one elce knowes the dynamics going on when your in my sight Shame on me for how I look at you what I am thinking What my heart is feeling. Carefully I must conceal this scandle, alive in my mind only. I cant ever ask you how you feel its not fair I made my choice, long ago its was not you..it was wrong. It has cost me so very much. I will never have you. I will never hold you. I will never touch your lips with mine... You are forbidden fruit, and I must turn away, and stop this agony. Stop constructing scenarios that might bring about a "happily ever after" with you, It can never be. But how do I stop the involuntary emotions that swell when you smile at me, when you stroke my sons hair so lovingly your good and gental and kind. You warmth is so desirable but I shall never know your embrace I have to go on... unhappily ever after