i know that i have only known you for a short amount of
time.
i know that you don't belong to me.
i know that you don't feel the same way.
i know i am being stupid.
and yet when i hear about you talking to other girls i get
this tingling sensation all over my body.
a tingle that i do not want.
a strange sensation of jelousy.
why is this happening.
i don't even know you that well.
what is wrong with me.
what do you care.
why do i bother.
it's not worth it.
it's heart breaking to know that no matter how much i want
you.
i can never have you.
no matter how much i wish i were with you.
i know it can never happen.
why do i feel this way.
whay do i have this desire.
why do i need you so much.
and yet not want you at all.
you are so far away.
and yet so close at hand.
i wish you were with me.
maybe then you would understand.
but you will never know.
as i will never show.
my true feelings for you.
i will keep hidden.
as i do when i talk to you.
i just wish things were different.
but they will never be.
my life is a mess.
but when i talk to you it doesn't seem so bad.
my rage is great within me.
because i know it can never be.
but that is the way it goes i guess.
because you belong to another.
not me.