it's about time i let you know
what i feel
the tears i don't show
i feel dead inside
but you don't know
the times i have cried
too many to count
the times i wanted to let go
it just seems too hard
i can't take it anymore
there's no knocks on the door
no one is home
not any more
i feel great pain
which i can't explore
trying to forget
doesn't help
trying to remember
i know too well
it kills me to say
it pains me soo deep
i am finding it hard to deal
just to stay on my feet
i fall to my knees
crying in pain
my tears are drying up
it's driving me insane
i don't know what to do
and i can't tak to you
the shame
the guilt
the summit of relief
i can't seem to find
i feel soo much grief
why is this happening
why am i feeling like this
i want it to end
to be over
i can't deal with it anymore
it's just too much
the time is coming
you need to know
that this isn't about you
this isn't anything you did
it's all about me
a selfish girl
in this wonderful world
i hate the pain
i hate the tears
i hate the fear in which i live
i need a release
i feel soo dead inside
i have cried to many tears to count
i grab my razor
i pull up my sleeve
i see the slight shine of the razor divine
i place my arm on my lap
one
two 
three
it glides accross my wrist so slowely
deeper it goes next time around
the feeling is of releif
of no more grief
i see the light
the light i need
i reach for it with all my might
but then it goes and i am left
lying on the floor
dead
no more