a smile for suicide

looking up at the stars watching as they get further everything around me's a blur and i feel myself closer to the ground then a sound of my bones crashing to the pavement life stops with a pop and everything goes dark lights are fading away and i am losing my breath i don't like myself anyway the rope tightens around my neck so i lose through this noose i have nothing left for me so the rope that i bought will be the one to set me free i don't mind anything but i'm tired i don't care cause i feel so uninspired just don't forget to think about me sometimes i regret the moments i cross the lines but i feel i need to go so goodbye... i feel the metal to my skin the shivers down my spine i can't get out the mess i'm in though i always say i'm fine and so bang, here i am i see myself in a pool of red lying down, face on the ground wishing i was in my bed i don't mind anything but i'm tired i don't care cause i feel so uninspired just don't forget to think about me sometimes i regret the moments i cross the lines but i feel i need to go so goodbye... *this is actually a song.. the tune is kindof cheery hence the title...*