Tired

Can't quite find the words that fit together tonight, because my heads stuck in a world wind, that I keep trying to fight, I'm just so filled up with you, and all these words that won't come out, and all the things that eat away, all the ghosts and all the doubt. I'm just so tired of craving you, and everything else that's unattainable, I'm so sick of loving everything that's just so unavailable, I'm just tired so tired, and I don't care if it goes, I'm screaming everything inside, and nobody knows, I'm tired of everything and its the only word that I can find to describe, exactly how I've been feeling for most of my life. I wish that I could make my long confession, that for a long time you've been my biggest obsession, but as soon as our eyes meet, the words just can't come out, the silence cuts me up inside, when I'm with you, there's know where to hide. I know my time will pass, and you'll get sick of me, and I hope that I can tell you, the reason I can't be free. I'm tired of searching for the problems and reasons I can stay, and of being so scared that you'll push me away, I'm so tired of imagining saying to you, all the words that I'll never say, like I'll love you forever, please don't fade away.