i think about happiness 
when it dwindles near
i think about hope
when i've lost control
i think about wishing
whenever i let go
i think about taking
but i never do
i think about love
but never seem to grasp it
i think about life
but fail in living
what is my meaning
what is my story
i dream about craziness
i dream about fear
i feel out of sorts
whenever you are near
you drive me wild
with such antisipation
that i hardly know where to begin
i can't control how i feel
which i loath a great deal
i wish to stop my feelings for you
but fail miserably when i try
i realize that i have lost hope
while you gain it in dimes
i am losing a struggle with myself
this great inner battle is wearing me down
i can't take it anymore
so i throw my heart in your direction
hope, preying 
that you recieve my gift
i wish for you to hope for us
never giving in