"Suicidal Dream"

I was flirting with the idea of suicide Spinning the blade in my fingers right before my eyes Thinking of opening myself up for the world to see Wondering what the world would be like without me Is life worth all the bleeding? Is it worth watching this world live a lie? Don’t know if I can take this anymore Will it change? Or will it stay as it’s always been before? I was teasing my fate with a list of possibilities Forgetting about my dreams and opportunities Craving for that feeling of being lifted from my pain I don’t see the point of playing life’s game Is life worth all the bleeding? Is it worth watching this world live a lie? Don’t know if I can take this anymore Will it change? Or will it stay as it’s always been before? What’s the point of living if life only brings you pain? They say that God gave us life for a reason Well, if that’s true does He really want us bleeding? There cannot be a God, I know there's not a God We suffer from so much misery We live lives of hell, on the pain, how we dwell To live or to die, to fall or to fly, to laugh or to cry We cannot decide, I cannot decide I was flirting with the idea of suicide Spinning the blade in my fingers right before my eyes Thinking of opening myself up for the world to see Why not, this world don’t give a fuck about me… Anyway… Is life worth all the bleeding? Is it worth watching this world live a lie? Don’t know if I can take this anymore Will it change? Or will it stay as it’s always been before? Is life worth all the bleeding? Is it worth watching this world live a lie? Don’t know if I can take this anymore If I can take this anymore, if I can take this anymore, anymore… But as long as I am alive I’ll keep dwelling on my suicidal dream *My poems/songs are protected by copyright laws on www.studentcenter.org*