heart throbbing with undissmissable pain
it burns inside like unstoping suffering
you feel as if you're dieing but yet it still burns
you cant figure out hou to stop it
with its rage inside
they can see the problem its so so clear
they just refuse to belive that your end is near
you cant resist the screaming
it fills your mind
the fire inside builds pressure
you cant relize the differance between life and death
you're so confused you are light headed
the room begins to spin
someone tells you to move
your eyes roll back
you fall to the ground
you wade up with eyes all around enlarged
they help you up and you begin to cry
you are so scared evin though it has happend before
you are helped off the ground
rushed to the emergency room
you have to wait a while
your head hurts so bad
you become nausious
the doctor comes to draw blood
your blood
it drips, you lick it up
they ask why
you look at them straight in the eyes
you tell them it tastes good
they wonder why
you smile, they glare, you run your hands through your hair
you tell them you love it
you love to be in pain
you love the sweet adrenalin
that you get from it
you tell them its better than feeling numb and worthless
the doctor just stares, and walks away
no one will ever know what you did that day
yet only you remember your past
refuse the present
and want to die in the future