I Don't.

I don't know how to start or where to start what to say or how to say it. how can you even begin to explain? i see myself for who i am, i see myself how you must see me and i sit here and wonder how long it will take before i start to cry. I don't cry because of me though i should. I cry because of what i have become and for that i can never forgive myself. now i miss you and me the way that we used to be. i don't know what it is that makes you you but all i know is you're the best friend i've ever had. I don't deserve that.