Every part of this is killing me. No longer do I need a good
reason to cry; it just happens now. I can't help it. Every
little thing is killing me.
Excuse my blood on your hands. You're only killing me.
Excuse the tears I shed every night. You're only killing
me.
Please stop lying to me. Don't tell me you won't and then do
it while I'm not there to stop you. Please just stop all
this lying. I don't think I can take it any longer.
Listen to me. I just need you to listen to me. Stop letting
everyone around you influence you. Don't ignore me any
longer. I'm tired of going over everything over and over
again. If you listened to me for once, I wouldn't have to
repeat myself.
You have no idea how much you're hurting me. I beg and plead
for you not to do drugs anymore. You don't listen. You don't
care. You just don't give a fuck.
I just want you to choose. I sure as hell know you aren't
going to listen to me. You are not going to stop lying.
You're not going to stop doing drugs and you're not going to
stop ignoring the fact that every single pill you pop makes
me cry. It kills me.
So just choose. The drugs you rely on or the girl you
supposedly love. Pick one. Drugs or me? You can't have the
drugs and expect me to stay with you. You sure as hell can't
have me and continue taking drugs. So just choose.
Choose; because I can't take it anymore. I've cried at
random times because of this. Everything remind me of your
goddamned habits. I can't stand wondering if you're lying or
not. I can't stand wondering whether you're high or not. I
can't stand it anymore.
Choose; because if you keep taking drugs, I will break up
with you. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to bleed
anymore.
Please choose. Please pick the right choice.
Excuse the blood on your hands. You're only killing me.
Excuse the tears that I shed. You're only killing me.

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