Fuck

Every part of this is killing me. No longer do I need a good reason to cry; it just happens now. I can't help it. Every little thing is killing me. Excuse my blood on your hands. You're only killing me. Excuse the tears I shed every night. You're only killing me. Please stop lying to me. Don't tell me you won't and then do it while I'm not there to stop you. Please just stop all this lying. I don't think I can take it any longer. Listen to me. I just need you to listen to me. Stop letting everyone around you influence you. Don't ignore me any longer. I'm tired of going over everything over and over again. If you listened to me for once, I wouldn't have to repeat myself. You have no idea how much you're hurting me. I beg and plead for you not to do drugs anymore. You don't listen. You don't care. You just don't give a fuck. I just want you to choose. I sure as hell know you aren't going to listen to me. You are not going to stop lying. You're not going to stop doing drugs and you're not going to stop ignoring the fact that every single pill you pop makes me cry. It kills me. So just choose. The drugs you rely on or the girl you supposedly love. Pick one. Drugs or me? You can't have the drugs and expect me to stay with you. You sure as hell can't have me and continue taking drugs. So just choose. Choose; because I can't take it anymore. I've cried at random times because of this. Everything remind me of your goddamned habits. I can't stand wondering if you're lying or not. I can't stand wondering whether you're high or not. I can't stand it anymore. Choose; because if you keep taking drugs, I will break up with you. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to bleed anymore. Please choose. Please pick the right choice. Excuse the blood on your hands. You're only killing me. Excuse the tears that I shed. You're only killing me. --- copyright 2007