I was blindly led.
They fed me lies and I believed them.
Took them in; processed what I wanted to hear.
Foolish.
That's what I was.
What I am.
He was a portrayal of the perfect human to me.
Everything I wanted to be; hoped and aspired to become.
But you know how small events can amplify the truths we just
won't face?
The little things you never noticed.
Finally brought to light by your own self,
Realizing that you cannot win it all.
Your inspiration was a fraud.
The realization brings the sickest of all feelings to every
part of your body.
You want it not to be true, to go back to when ..
You were content having him be your everything.
This so-called mentor can teach a lesson anyway.
One of regret.
One that you need to learn how to not become attached to
things.
How you just have to take in everything you like about
someone,
And realize that they have got their own share of faults as
well.
I feel like I am just another one of those ignorant girls.
God, I wanted to be so much more than that.
Judgement is hard sense to master.
I failed at learning about that, too, you know.
I am done.
With putting people so high up on a pedestal; even higher
than myself.
I saw the world in him, admired and looked up to him in the
highest degree.
He only saw the child in me; a silly girl he never bothered
to even get to know.
Bitterness is something ugly.
But right now, I would hate to be beautiful.