i've got it all figured out

why is this happening? why do i care? my heart is accelerating people are starting to stare i love him i do i know it is true but maybe for now i shouldnt deny what my heart is trying to let me allow i wish i could fly and stop all the crying stop all the madness stop all the fighting stop all the sadness stop all the writing start speaking for my feeling not putting it down because once i start dealing and stop moaping around then i will be able to choose my prince my life would be more stable and i could finally rinse my hands of the mess that has hurt me so dearly and i could finally possess the life that so mearly would make me so happy and i could live in peace