What have I done?
Was I pressured into this
It was my own decision
What the hell did I miss
I didn’t think I could be stupid
It started with just one
There was no way I could lose control
I thought it would be fun

What have I done?
I lost all control
I desperately cling on
Fighting with my own soul
I keep on falling, further down
My spiralling fall will never end
I can’t live like this
Will I ever mend

What have I done?
Can anybody see
These walls are falling 
All around me
I can’t believe this, draw the blood
All I see is red
I was never meant to come to this
My head hangs low, heavy as lead 

What have I done?
I have nowhere to go
I’m on the outside
How did I sink this low
I thought it was a game
When this started I did not recognize
How much pain I would cause
But now I see, now I despise

What have I done?
I can not pull out
I’ve messed myself up
I’ve given in to all my doubt 
I waved the white flag
I started to abuse
I couldn’t see what was ahead
This is why I lose

Now I can see 
What I have done
This is something I started
This is not a game I have won
I’ve opened my eyes
I’m not blind anymore
I can’t believe I didn’t notice
I AM ROTTEN TO THE CORE