What I've Become

Let you ink black words upon my heart, you've had me in binds from the start, threading poison love throughout, consuming me with dusty doubt. It seems there ain't no remedy, just keep falling perpetually so could you tell me when we'll break? Maybe how much more I'll take? You have taken both my wings, kissed the pain, tied cold in strings 'til there's no way that I could run, enraptured by the things you've done. I languish here within your arms, radiant under all your charms and then it's time to go back home, realise I'm really all alone. Surrounded by my layered lies, they don't know what riots inside; the rotten core, the dark divide, the love, the hate, all that I hide. I used to live in another world, with fewer storms, a different girl, she screamed but they never heard her, an accomplice to my own murder. I want to choke on your embrace so they can never see my face; all the wounds and all the scars, let them focus on the stars. Ice that slips under my skin, cold sunshine that I let in, shudder as I slam the door, I'm two people, one no more. Elevated from reality, baby, I am numb and fuck it's so much better than feeling what I've become.